i know....

i know He loves me so much... 

i know He has a plan for me... and it is wonderful... 

but i don't like the way He loves me... it's too harsh... right now....

and i don't like the plan He has for me... it's too far from now... 

i live now... His all wonderful things are far from me and from now... 

the distance between His plan in future and my life in present is my sadness and sorrow....

and, i know, if someone should change, it's me... dang it!!!

- with many tears and sighs...